STAY

I'm holding back this feelings,

So please say you'll stay.

I wish you're just a step away,

For me not to act this way.

I always think you're just here,

Whenever sadness strike I cannot bear.

But even though you're near,

I always feel you're far from here.

Why can't I feel so secured?

Even though I always think I should.

I can be tired of this,

I'm scared it would happen bits by bits.

Oh love, i'm so afraid,

That one day you'll be awake.

And your feelings may change,

Then you'll walk away from here, someday.

Written: Jan 16, 2014, 11:20 PM.

IS IT THE ENDING?

What if I lost you in time I cant give it up anymore?

Will I shed a tear a thousand times?

Will my pillow be soaked in tears every night?

Will I regret every moment I do not tell you how much I love you?

Or will I lost my pride for you to come back?

When will I lost you?

Maybe it's the time when you realized how irritating it is to call you.

Maybe it's when you get tired of me suffocating you.

Maybe of the promises I made and break when our hearts were young in love.

Or maybe because of the times I keep you waiting in vain without knowing when I will come back.

Will our love last forever and never be lost?

Will your love continue just like the promise I made too?

Will you endure suffering as much as i do?

Will you understand me in times that no one can't?

Or Will you be always there when nobody wants to be with me?

What should I do when I lost you?

Should I do something when you walk away?

Or should I stop and let you keep walking?

Should I run after you and keep chasing?

Or should I turn my back to not see who is waiting?

Maybe we will be happy?

We will be contented and open with one another.

We will exert effort to grow as much as expect the best for each other.

We will be stronger in every challenges we take together.

And we will enjoy life forever.

Or maybe, we will moved on and wish each other good luck.

Will we accept each others hatred?

And saying goodbye will be the end?

Will we be happy leaving each others side?

Or will we be praying to be back in each others arms?

If time comes that we have to choose on leaving and staying,

I hope you still choose to stay.

Or maybe choose to leave if that's the ending should end.